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tuesday, january 8

These are old posts from that day that Blogger was broken...

I've had lots of kinds of blocks for weeks...

The energy in my body is kind of just pulsating in the same spots and won't really move. I haven't been writing or meditating... been kind of a hermit as a matter of fact. My body just feels sluggish... stuck. Kapha energy predominating.

Kapha energy in the study of Ayurveda is the steady earth energy. Steady, but slow and heavy. Not much movement. Stable. The thing is that when kapha is dominating me, I don't feel stable at all. I feel frustrated with myself and like something is wrong with me.

We went hiking on Sunday, and I felt all of these blocked spaces clearing. While we were out there breathing in the moist air and soaking in the green green medicine of the plants and trees, I felt exhilerated, free. My energy danced and swirled smoothly. It flowed, not pulsated. flowed. I felt light,meditative,ideas were coming to me.

As we drove back into town across the bridge, we paid our toll in more ways than one... I exchanged that absolute high for worrying about where we would eat because I was starving, thinking about work, getting annoyed at people in traffic, just a whole different feeling. My soul felt crowded. Does the city have that affect on me? Would any city have that affect on me if that was the city where I lived and worked?

Perhaps going across the bridge to Cataract Falls adds to the glory of the place. You drive only a short distance yet actually going across a bridge puts you in a whole other state of mind. You are seperated from your concerns by an actual bridge. I must explore more of Mt. Tam. She calls to me with her beauty and space. Her ridges, waterfalls, streams, forests, and trails are where I feel at home in my body. I am being shown a lot lately that I would like to learn more about the ability to channel places.

I believe that you can channel places. and people and states of mind.... I just want to learn more about doing it so that next time I'm working late I can channel Cataract Falls. Next time I sit empty-headed or muddled in front of a journal entry that just won't materialize I can channel sitting on top of Yosemite Point with my brother.

Fragmented ramblings today from a fragmented spirit...
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I have had writer's block for weeks now.
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